I am well aware that everyone struggle with contentment issues. Sometimes it’s hard to be satisfied with a life that seems to be going downhill fast. I am just want to share some of my contentment struggles.
I am satisfied with my wife, my income, my apartment and my overall standard of living. I don’t have a lot but I have enough and I realize the only reason I have what I do is through God’s provision. There are however some areas where I am not so satisfied at times. I will share just a few.
- Time – I never have enough. My work takes up 50 hours a week which leaves very little time for leading a church and giving my wife all the time that she deserves. It’s frustrating when you know all the things that you need to do but then come to the realization that you can’t do it. This is sometimes multiplied when no one else sees how important those things are.
- Relationships – This is closely tied to the time issue. Because I am so busy juggling the different hats I am required to wear I rarely have time to cultivate my relationships with even my closest friends much less establish new ones. I am trying to make this a priority but it’s hard. That’s why it’s listed here as a struggle.
- Sleep – Again tied to the time issue. I have to be up a 6 am to go to work and then early evening meetings. After that it’s usually a little time with my wife. Once she goes to bed I have time to work on church projects and any personal things I want to do. So I stay up until midnight. 6 am always comes to soon.
Here is the point. As everybody knows, especially bi-vocational pastors, time is limited. We, and by that I mean I, have got to learn to make the most of the limited time that I do have and trust God to accomplish what I can not. He is usually better at it anyway. I truly believe that he lets me be a part for my benefit and not his.
So how do you deal with these struggles?