This is a very hard post for me to write but I feel I need to. I shared this during the service at LifePoint this past Sunday and it was very hard. God is healing me but I still have a long way to go. Sometimes there are things that happen in your youth that have a dramatic impact on how you view the world. I had something happen that impacted how I viewed God and and his church.
Without getting into the boring details, I was a very excited and passionate person when it came to my faith. I wanted to change my community and my city. I didn’t know how to do it but I knew I had to do something. So I started building a team to reach out through arts and a zeal for both God and people.
On two separate occasions I was sat down by one of the pastors and the drama director and corrected. I was called rebellious, obstinate and hard headed. Those words stuck with me for many years as I seemingly proved them to be true at various stages of my life. They still at times try and creep back in. I felt like God himself had called me those names since he didn’t seem to come to my side and defend me. I felt alone and in many ways gave up on my faith. I have also relived this same scenario in many diferent ways and stages.
I gave faith another chance but not without resentment. I tried to be what everyone wanted me to be. I didn’t succeed usually, but I tried. In my travelling with the New Life Drama Company I ended up at a church in Broomfield, CO called His Beloved Family Church. There I received a prophecy of sorts that to this day haunts me.
Regardless of what your views are on the Holy Spirit and the gifts that operate because of his infuence, I would like to share this prophecy with you. Know this, this message from God (and that is exactly what I believe it was) has changed and is chaging my life.
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Here is the beautiful part of how the Holy Spirit sometimes works. This was a message for me but I believe that the Holy Spirit wants to re-speak through this word to someone out there who perhaps has felt the scars of the story I shared above. I hope that you have ears to hear.
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wow…I really love it! If it spoke to no one else know that it spoke to me. It’s hard when someone misunderstands your actions because they don’t completely know your heart. I spent so much time of my life (and probably still do) striving to overcome words and labels placed on my shoulders by those (well meaning as they may be) who address outward actions without looking for the passions and motives behind it. That’s why it’s so important to only rely on the words of our lover and lord. Good word! Right on!
Gerry, I am glad that it spoke to you.
I’ve been meaning to tell you that I’m glad you were able to share that, at church and here. It’s not easy to share something so personal. I know what it’s like to be healing from past wounds- because I’m in that process myself. Hearing that in the service a few weeks ago was very powerful, and I just wanted to tell you that. :)
wow im speechless to a point. listening to it touched me spiritually. thank you for sharing that.